Wednesday, August 6, 2008

An Elegy Bemoaned

“Written on a paper in black ink
Read all who may.
Pray and raise a toast, a drink,
My elegy it is, such I Portray”

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Ma, I heard your voice
And you calling me loud
Now I don’t have any choice
For you are under your shroud


What you said was right
I could never gauge it then
With you I kicked a fight
When I ran away to learn one-to-ten


“Nobody is going to be yours
When I’m gone my child”
Now when my plight soars
I know every grain of your thought Ma’ was beyond mild


Under the frozen stars I lay on my bed
Waiting to be scavenged anytime; he would say
“Wife you are mine in this locked-wed
Pretend before this world that you are fine, come let’s play”


Morning he goes for work
Leaving me to blemish my woes in a corner
I count the seconds to wait for the serpent to lurk
Returning me favors by giving me the fur


Too many chances but I lost each time
I was fifteen when I first bore a child
Within days of bliss I tasted the lime
I was tamed thereafter like an animal wild


I remember your words Ma’ your kisses and hugs
Pull me out Ma’ before I drown
In the streets ma’ perennial with threats of thugs
I pray each Day to swallow the Nightly frown

Finally in my death-tray today
I have no-one to hear my coffined moans
I’m giving back this life what I never got per say
A debt I have to re-pay; the scars form this life I got on loan

11 comments:

Bnorty said...

this is deep!! even for me...took me 3 readings to get the exact meaning! well done gurl. keep it up.

Ashish Mathur said...

brilliant.

Sharanya said...

I don't know if saying thank you for appreciating my work is fair enough ... h'm glad it stirred your inner-self :)

Arif San said...

wonderful work sonu..........that feeling of pain is very strong in this work of urs.

Sharanya said...

thanks arif ! :)

The Seeker said...

Guess I was late here, sonu...
Beautiful portrayal of love between a mom and a daughter, A mom knows her child best, and the one who s always there to reassure her child..
"Finally in my death-tray today
I have no-one to hear my coffined moans
I’m giving back this life what I never got per say
A debt I have to re-pay; the scars form this life I got on loan"

Last stanza, had tears in my eyes for no reason!!!

Can you really repay love??

Sharanya said...

I don't think so that one can ever re-pay love. love is bound to be something which is showered upon someone without any expectations. love for mum-dad-sister-brother-lover-better-haaalfs or anybody.
it cannot be gauged either. to be loved-or be loving and vice-versa is the beauty of relationships. at times one even feels handicapped when emotions cannot be expressed! i hope you do agree with my chain of thoughts!

The Seeker said...

Hey very true! you kind of feel handicapped when you cant express your love and the other doesnt understand the anxities that love causes...

The Seeker said...

and again you're tagged
http://basicallythejobless.blogspot.com/2008/09/tagged-days-of-my-life.html

Elithraniel Arawion said...

hey blog hopped here. Must say, amazing poem! Deep and descriptive... so true!

Sharanya said...

Thanks for dropping by. :)