"NAMESAKE"

“I searched for myself
With doubts
If I ever did exist
Or too scattered was the claim?

Was I too high
To free myself
From the fetters I carry
With the name?

I’m free but laughing
Laughing yet sighing
Coz I can’t figure out
In an acute maze of flame

Shedded tears for the namesake
Flooded ink with patience
But I’m aware now
In spite of the blame

I brave the odds
For myself, for the name
For the sense I gathered
For what they say was lame…

Left behind the flux
Held that ladybird in my hand
Made it disappear
For it too had a name…